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Saturday, January 11, 2014

CD22, 9dpo, 8dpiui, Praying for BFP!

Through all this I learned a new language. A language I was unfamiliar with in the beginning of my journey but as time went on and I took more 'classes' I immersed myself more and more in the language I became a member of the world of infertility acronyms and now I am practically fluent. I can decode a sentence such as "TTC for 5 yrs, cd14, 2dpo, 1dpiui, BFP on cd24" just as you are reading these words I am typing.

Today I am 8 days post IUI and had blood work done yesterday to check my progesterone levels. The results came back at 16 so everything is perfect with those levels. I am still on the thyroid medicine which last time that was checked about a month ago it was at 1.6 which is also perfect. My days are crazy right now with everything I am required to remember to do. In the morning before I move or talk I have to check my BBT, after that have to take a thyroid pill (with plenty of water) an hour before I eat anything, my progesterone medicine has to be taken in the morning and at night spaced out 12 hours from each other so I must time that correctly each day twice a day, and then sometime throughout the day (after I eat) I take my pre-natal pills, I do blood work at the doctor office every few days and schedule acupuncture after work at least twice a week. We go back into Dr. Anderson's office in 6 days.... a week from yesterday, January 17, 2014 at 7am for the final blood work to see if all of this paid off. I will have the blood work done, go to work and they will call about 2pm with the results. I decided I am not going to answer the phone and asked them to leave the results on my voicemail and I will listen to it with Joey when I get home.... HE BETTER NOT BE FLYING A TRIP THAT DAY! I am so so so so so so so EXCITED and nervous! This IS it the moment we have been praying for every day, we ask all of our friends and family to pray, we have people at our Carlsbad and Mission Viejo church praying, we have our co-workers praying and best of all we have God! We know that He knows what is best for us and what our hearts desire. In 6 days I pray I can leave the infertility acronym club and finally upgrade to the mommy club, just 6 more days! xoxo

Wednesday, January 1, 2014

Happy New Year

Happy New Year!!!! Joey and I are so excited to see how God is going to bless us in 2014 with all the people praying for us.... means the world to Joey and I.

Last night was a lot of fun, while Joey was flying home from a trip to Aspen I met up with some of my girls friends. I met one for lunch with her boyfriend (I should be saying fiance.... hopefully soon) we had a great lunch and walked along the boardwalk in Carlsbad. After that I met another good friend and my bestie at a resort she was staying at to ring in the new year, so fun just hanging out with the girls for a bit. Once Joey landed we got ready and went over to our newlywed friends place, they recently bought, for a nice dinner party to ring in the new year, it was such a nice way to spend the last part of 2013. Tomorrow is my big day with the IUI in the morning and another IUI the following morning. I had my HCG trigger shot this morning, it was not painful going in but now (about 5 hours later) it feels like a horse kicked me where the shot was injected, very painful. I just took an OPK test and it came out positive so I did an emergency call to Dr. Anderson and he said that it is positive because of the HCG that we injected into my body and it was normal and to wait until tomorrow for the IUI. He said this was good and it means that the trigger shot is doing what it's suppose to be doing. Fingers crossed for tomorrow.... we will keep everyone posted.

Friday, December 27, 2013

Fight On.....

Everything we're doing is worth the fight. Every second I temp, take meds, get injections of hormones, miss vacations for ultrasounds and blood work, I am doing for my little miracle. For some, it's easy to get pregnant. Others, people say it's impossible. I will not to give up. All the strength I am getting now I will need for years to come. First is the pregnancy. Pregnancy may tire me more than getting pregnant ever did. But I won't give up. Every second I want to quit, I don't because there is a little angel waiting to meet me, cheering me on as I battle my way through. After I see my bundle of joy and will have many trying days and nights.... But I won't give up. Each and every day is a battle, but someday will look back and think "I made it through once, I can do it again." Remember that strength. Remember those tears. Remember why I started this journey to begin with.

I pray I get my angel. I pray for success as I fight the fight of infertility. I'm not alone. Many people may be in different stages in the journey, but we are all united for one reason: our angels, that despite all the pain it brings sometimes, they remind us of how strong we really are. 

Tonight something special happened. Joey was flying a trip and I needed to get my injection at 7pm. I knew way before 7pm that I would not be able to give myself a shot so I asked a friend of mine up in OC if she knew anyone in the area. She let me know what her dad have given shots in the last and would be happy to help me out. I think it's so sweet that she asked him and he offered. I ended up not going to him since I got in contact with someone else who could help me that is a nurse and lives close to me but found out she was not going to make it home by 7pm. So what did I do from there??? I called the hospital to see if I could go in there and they could give it to me, they said only if I called 911 and was brought in by ambulance.... talk about dramatic. If you know me you know I dont take the first NO I hear so I went down to the local fire dept with my medication and needles in hand and asked if they would please help me out. First they said they couldn't but then the captain walked up and said he would be happy to help, he said that him and his wife went through IVF and knows how hard it can be. Something so little meant the world to me. All the other guys at the station looked at me like I was some kind of wimp but this guy who walked in my shoes with his wife understood that it was more than just a needle it was every doctor appt, and insurance denial, and disappointing news that made everything 1000 times harder. I understand there are rules and I bet if I went again it would not happen but that one 5 seconds of help meant the world to me and gave me hope. I talked to him for a few minutes and we discovered that he just had twin boys from through IVF from the same fertility doctor Joey and I are going to in Newport. I know it's not big but to me it's a sign that we are doing the right thing. Thanks random fireman :) 

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Thursday, December 26, 2013

IUI with Injectables CD 6

Merry Christmas. Joey and I had  wonderful Christmas spent with family. I'm off work for the next two weeks which is so nice but more of a reason I'm happy I'm off is for all the doctor appts we going to right now. Joey and I are doing an IUI with injectables this month. We have done 3 IUI's in the past taking Clomid but never with injectables. Today is cycle day (CD) 6 and day 4 of my injectables (Follistim). I had my 2nd ultrasound this morning and I am currently measuring 7 follicles on my right with the largest measuring 14x7mm and 12 follicles on the left with the largest measuring 14x10mm and my uterine lining measuring 6.4..... For the next 2 days we are continuing with the 100iu of Follistim and we have another ultrasound in two days to check the size of follicles and baseline blood work to check my estrogen levels and progesterone. We are praying that the smaller follicles catchup with the injection we did tonight and another one tomorrow night. I will update once we have our next ultrasound in 2 days, Saturday. Please pray for us that this time works..... we are so excited that this month will FINALLY be the month and all the bruising will fade away and we can finally begin our life as a family of 3. Joey has been an amazing nurse giving me my injections each evening. This has been an emotionally and financially draining process but we will do whatever it takes to meet our little miracle. We will never give up or lose hope. God has a plan for us and we believe it's to raise one of His children. Please keep us in your prayers.... xoxo

All of the black holes are follicles on my left side (in this pic you can only see 6-7 but there are at least 12 on this side)


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Monday, November 11, 2013

Price Match

Today I researched the internet all day and now am saving $400.00 on medications for next IUI with injectables cycle. MDR (the pharmacy that carries the fertility drugs) told me they price match.... if you know me you know I will research the heck out of the internet to find the best price and I did.... it took all day but I found a great deal, so excited! It's like couponing. And in the process I met a really nice lady who just got pregnant with twins with Dr. Anderson's help from doing an IUI with injectables with Follistim,  HCG trigger shot and progesterone capsules. She reassured my concern with the amount of money we are spending to see Dr. Anderson that we have made the best choice because he is the best infertility doctor in OC. 

Jealous!

People often think I get jealous or angry when I see pregnant people or babies. My response: Not one person has it all. Just because one part of their life came easily to them, that doesn't mean the rest did. I have God, an incredible husband/marriage, a beautiful home, wonderful family and friends and an amazing job. And a baby is in my future, I just have to keep praying.

Sunday, November 3, 2013

Laparoscopy and Hysteroscopy Results

Laparoscopy and Hysteroscopy went well. Doctor found a little endometriosis and lasered it away. Going in next week for the post-op and will find out the next step in our journey. Thank you to everyone who was praying for me yesterday and reached out to Joey and I to see how it went. It means the world to us. A special thanks to my mom and best friend Nikki for coming down to Newport Surgery Center to support me and a HUGE Thanks my AMAZING husband for being by my side and taking care of me through everything. xoxo

This is my uterus (above), (didn't expect a uterus to look like that huh?) and that red on it is endometriosis. 

This is one of my fallopian tubes (above), they also looked inside it but those pics are not worth sharing (can't see much)

                                                                    Liver (Above)

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